My biggest problem, is that I feel deeply connected to suffering

You live in a field of opposites, all around you there is, up and down, hot and cold, good and bad, joy and suffering. One defines the other, we cannot know anything without the contrast or the opposite being present. The question is what do you want to put your attention on and thus make grow?

Life would be very boring if everything was the same. This is why we have created the contrast in life. What I am asking you to do, is see the unity in the contrast and decide were you want to put your attention? Is your glass half full or half empty? It you put your attention on the half empty you will spiral down until you know the depths of emptiness. If you put your attention on a half full glass you will spiral up until your glass is overflowing with life and love.

I have scarce resources myself so I cant help by sharing in a financial way I get the feeling by this statement that you are dis-powering yourself? You could choose to be the source of abundance for another person. Even with the little you have it is very easy for you to find someone who has even less than you and share your abundance with him or her. Do you see the change in mind set? You are the Universe so you have no lack unless you forget to remember who you are!

The beauty and yet the pain of the Now When we go to a cinema to watch a movie, it may be about happiness, it may be about sadness. It could be the most violent war film or the most beautiful love story, but in all cases the film screen is just the silent witness. It does not get caught up in the film, it is just the screen on which it is shown. The same with your mind, your mind is the screen on which the movie of life is shown in all its contrasts. The personality within the body the Self is non-changing absolute, and is just the silent witness to life. You have the freedom to choose your reaction to life in every moment. You can be the silent witness of who you are or you can choose to take on the pain and suffering or you can choose to react in a creative positive way to create the change you wish to see in the world.